Today's memories

2012-01-02T02:23:00.000+08:00

It's a brand new year. It's a tough question for myself of how to welcome this year 2012 as well as my resolution. If there are so much to do in this year, I would set those which is my priority to be the year resolution. There are good times and bad times in year 2011, some are really screwed up ones, i hope i could do something about it this year. People come and go, appreciate those that came and glad that those left who were once appear in my life. For 365 days, I believe that I see, experienced and learnt lots of things. With all these, it would help me in creating a better year for myself.

I apreciate, I do learn, and now I hope to be a better one.

2011-12-31T04:59:00.000+08:00

How should I welcome year 2012?

2011-10-26T02:05:00.002+08:00

i still do cry at night.

2011-10-09T15:52:00.000+08:00

All these i do remember. It stays with me.

2011-09-23T23:46:00.000+08:00

I'm really sorry, i know i hurt you badly.

2011-09-16T23:14:00.000+08:00

This sucks, i swear. I'm completely not myself, being selfish and I'm telling myself each time just walk through it. Blame it on me, hate me or anything else. Because i know things will be well after sometime. I seriously need a getaway, away from here and just keep my mind free. I felt like as if I'm another person. fml

2011-08-30T15:36:00.001+08:00

goodbye my lover.

the end.

2011-08-29T11:57:00.002+08:00

I NEED THE SUN BADLY. GONNA GET MY LAZY ASS OUT.

2011-06-19T17:44:00.000+08:00

I guess I'm doing fine inside and getting used to the life already. I'm gonna train hard for my ippt as well as other aspects. Every weekend, i wish i could have more time because I've have many things to do. I wish i could juggle things well enough. I got to learn.

Almost one month :)

2011-05-21T01:42:00.000+08:00

Sometimes human are very complicated at times. I don't know why I couldn't be that excited and happy that I'm actually gonna start serious work in my life. Looking at the letter, knowing that I need to report to police academy next wednesday, I don't see myself looking forward to it. Like too sudden for me and I'm not mentally prepared yet. But this is my choice, I got to get through it and excel in it. Besides my job, there are other things that I can't stop worry about. I will balance it well, this i promise.
Will still continue to paddle and keep fit !

imy,ily <3

2011-04-21T00:05:00.002+08:00

I think I've rest enough. It's time to get my butt up and do something. Tempted to go back on dragonboat once again. But I'm confused of where to go. Should I go here or there. In anyway, i need to get back before i get too lazy!

2011-04-12T23:42:00.000+08:00

This blog had been neglected for alot of months since last update.

All these months, there are so much of things happening, be it personal or work life, making decisions here and there. Especially when you are graduating from poly, need good plannings for future. Finally, move to a new house, having one more room and it means that i have my own room ! Still have quite a lot of stuff to unpack and things are just everywhere now. I'm just too lazy to pack.

This coming friday I'm celebrating my advance 21st Birthday, I can say i hardly hold birthday party, this should be my second time in my whole life? Hope it would turn out great, everyone can enjoy themselves happily.

Rest well everyone!

2011-02-17T00:37:00.000+08:00

suddenly, i felt like as if im dying soon. In anytime.
feeling so sick these days, finally got better. whatever i've lost, this time round i'm gonna make it up.
but now, i felt that all hopes are gone. am i too late for it? or just sensitive?

2011-01-04T09:08:00.000+08:00

A brand new year 2011, everything that is bad, good, or neutral, i will leave it in year 2010.
Going to start it well again, whatever effort or hardwork is all in year 2010. For now, everything start from zero.
These days, dont know whats going on my mind, but it seems like i only know few things that are very important in my life. Maybe when you get older, you will know what or who is important in your life all these while.

~~From zero to hero.~~

Not gonna be less important, not gonna lose the place in your heart.

2010-12-13T08:44:00.000+08:00

Whenever it comes to december, everything is so messy. Whatever happened this whole year, it has to be cleared before year 2011. Should i even reveal what's my resolution or should i just keep it with me? This year christmas, i'm gonna cherish it and spend it well.
(whoareyoureferingto,me?)

2010-11-25T11:30:00.000+08:00

With no regrets, I've ended my dragonboat career in RP. All the hardwork, sweat and tears are worth it. Good stuffs such as having fun in trainings, drunkards in chalet and stupid jokes cracked by our guys. It's time for all the year 3s to look ahead and move forward to a greater height and bigger challenge. I know we all can do it, simply because we are trained and prepared for it.
This coming 22nd of Dec, we shall have an enjoyable night spend in chalet. This might be the last one, so lets cherish it. Our friendship will last, as well as RPDB will always be our big family in our heart.

The Women Team

Year 3s

Year 2s

Year 1s

Here comes the MUD BATH!

[We are getting better, this is what we know clearly in our heart:)]

2010-11-19T12:12:00.001+08:00

This weekend will be sava race, talked to few people and i just need to accept the fact. I hope my contribution for these years are recognised and appreciated. Not letting it go to waste, i will continue to stand by my team. With what i've went through these years, what i've experienced, i hope it would bring them to another step.
Graduation day is nearing, people that i've met here have make my life full of colors and that is why these three years are so fun.

To my team,
I'm simply proud of you.

2010-11-15T08:51:00.000+08:00

A brand new week again, but i'm happy enough as there is one day free for this week. Attachment is ending soon, kinda fast though and i guess i will miss this place.

Everyday, i'm thinking when can i eat the food from vegetarian stall in RP, haven been eating for months! And i'm craving for that badly, cheap and delicious.

I hope everything is good now and i think i'm reaching there in balancing my life.

Enjoy this week everyone!

2010-11-12T15:27:00.000+08:00

I'm so glad that this week passed so fast and I'm purely just looking forward to the end of the week.
I've promise...
to run Slow with you,
to be happy no matter we are poor or rich,
to make your day on the 12 November onwards,

to give morning call 15 minutes earlier.

Be as Happy as Them

2010-10-18T13:09:00.000+08:00

Up till now, one month of attachment really makes me feel so apart from school. Shouldn't I feel happy without school? But why do i miss schooling, especially the food and people there. Time really passes fast, is gonna be three years of poly life. I shall think of what to do after my poly life now.

Take care everyone:)

2010-10-08T09:47:00.000+08:00

No matter how far the distance is, i still feel close to you.

2010-10-02T22:45:00.002+08:00

i can't help it. being selfish is only the way that can protect you.

i'm sorry.

2010-09-28T10:48:00.000+08:00

Allow me to hear all troubles, i just wish i could go into your heart and untie any knots found there.

I don't wanna be blinded by anything that i could not do anything about the knots.

I'm here, always do.

2010-09-23T15:26:00.001+08:00

i don't have a choice for this, but i do have for that.
i don't feel good at all, but at least i know there's someone will be right here with me.
that's you.

2010-09-18T22:50:00.000+08:00

It was a tiring day, woke up early and head down to Christalite Methodist Home for community service. Spent almost half of our day there helping out. Pushed the wheelchair bound elderly to RP, wash 3 vans, wash the canteen, wipe the tables and chairs. Lastly, sing songs, alot of old old song though. Sometimes when you look at them, you will find them cute unknowingly, just by their actions or even they don't do anything and just sit there. They don't choose to be there, but is fated that someone will find them and give them a home to stay. They might not be in good condition, but at least they have 'family members' there with them. Once awhile, they just need us, to spend a little time with them and end with a big smile or thank you in return.

They don't talk much, they don't bring up any of their past. There's just one thing that we can learn from them, they cherish what is now, they live their life to the fullest and they can be pleased easily despite others.

With love.

2010-09-12T22:40:00.000+08:00

For all the time in my life, i hardly go to the airport.
I guess today is a day where something just lead me there unknowingly.
The best place that i will go, not the barrage, neither the esplanade, but the airport.
When do i really have the chance to leave singapore for a while.
Spend some quiet moments, watching the planes take off. It seems like the plane has just taken off something from you. It can be anything in your life, can be your worries, your troubles or even your loved ones.
Just sit there as long as you want to, and it will take away as much down feelings as you want to.

Be sure that when you stand up and leave, never turn back. Just cherish whatever which is dear to you right now and be happy.

2010-09-05T23:09:00.000+08:00

whatever i do, i'm doing it sincerely.
i don't break it just like that, i choose to save this with any ways i can.
~~*secret password*~~

2010-08-30T23:27:00.003+08:00

i care, do you?

2010-08-30T23:27:00.001+08:00

i care, do you?

2010-08-16T15:49:00.000+08:00

Busy holidays !
Got to study for UT3, go for my first aid course, training and work.
Soon, i'm going for my attachment on the 20th of september.
I'm happy when i know i do not need to return to school, to be in classroom till i graduate.
But somehow, you will miss the great moments with your classmates.
Miss the school food, cos it's cheap! HAHA.
Three years in RP pass so fast...

2010-07-30T00:26:00.001+08:00

i miss the soft conversation
i miss the whisper
i miss the smell
i miss the feeling
i miss the words

i miss everything right now becos it's always close to my heart.

2010-07-21T00:00:00.000+08:00

Even everything seems like crashing on you,
you felt it,
but you have no idea how to explain it to someone else.

It's just in you, like as if there's battle inside you.

2010-07-18T22:06:00.000+08:00

Beep Beep Oh Look Now There Goes My Phone
And Once Again Im Just Hoping Its A Text From You
It Aint Right i read your Messages Twice thrice
Four Times A Night Its True
Everyday I Patiently Wait
Feeling Like A Fool But I Do Anyway
Nothing Can Feel As Sweet And As Real
As Knowing I Wasn't Waiting In Vain
And Maybe Its True Im caught Up On You
Maybe There's A Chance That you're
Stuck On Me Too
So Maybe Im wrong Its All In My Head
Maybe We're Afraid of Words We Both Hadnt Said
I'm Always Connected Online
Hooked On *Facebook* All The Time
Hoping You've Checked My Profile
just cant help wondering why
you play it cool cz,
im hopelessly falling for you
*every night on my phone i
hook up with you
and i dont even like it girl
all chokin' in side
why dont you and i
come out and see what we're trying to hide *
And Maybe Its True Oh Im caught Up On You
Maybe There's A Chance That You're Stuck On Me Too
So Maybe Im wrong Its All,In My Head
Maybe We're Afraid Words We Both Hadnt Said
*like i realy want you
i think i need you
baby i miss you
im thinking of you

2010-07-18T21:10:00.000+08:00

nobody knows...

2010-07-18T12:35:00.002+08:00

Could i be the hero and save the sleeping beauty from her sleep?

2010-07-15T23:48:00.002+08:00

Completed FYP report, FYP poster and now left with FYP presentation on 24th of july. How great am i to be the second person for presentation, see how well i stutter..

2010-07-15T19:48:00.002+08:00

It pains me to say i'm fine.

2010-07-14T14:49:00.001+08:00

Hard

2010-07-14T14:03:00.005+08:00

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
would it matter anyway?
would it change how you feel?

I am the mess you chose
the closet you can not close
The devil in you I suppose
'cuz the wounds never heal

But everything changes
if I could turn back the years
If you could learn to forgive me
then I could learn to feel

Sometimes the things I say
In moments of disarray
Succumbing to the games we play
To make sure that it's real

But everything changes
if I could turn back the years
If you could learn to forgive me
then I could learn to feel

When it's just me and you
Who knows what we could do
If we can just make it through
the toughest part of the day

But everything changes
if I could turn back the years
If you could learn to forgive me
then I could learn how to feel
Then we could
Stay here together
And we could
Conquer the world
If we could
Say that forever
It's more than just a word

You just walked away
What could I really say?
It wouldn't matter anyway.
It wouldn't change how you feel

2010-07-14T13:57:00.000+08:00

0% mood.
Just a second of you passing by my sight is what i hope.

2010-07-12T11:53:00.000+08:00

Finally the stressful week is gone, i guess i relax my mind for a moment.
Next phase is coming up soon, need to be well prepared.

I guess is a different feeling when you are last year in RPDB, so strong that nothing could break us apart.
In this big family, all the brothers and sisters, helping and care for each other.
The strong team spirit can be seen in us.
Just one word, Thanks .

2010-07-06T09:59:00.000+08:00

Even the world is crashing on me, it's not a good reason to give up.

Next week, everything will be fine and good.
Stressful week, tired week. Let's do it well this week and happy moments will be here next week.

(iwanttoseeyousmileagain,iveneglectedtheimportantpoints,butiwillnotneglectitagain)

2010-06-28T00:35:00.000+08:00

i believe, i trust, i treasure.

Why do humans feel heavy-hearted sometimes?
Feeling those soreness in your heart, sour feeling?
Amazing, isn't it? It just a feeling, that represent heartbreaks.
Heart don't just keep pumping blood that keep us going, it's true that it will be emotional at times. But sadly, no one can take a closer look inside.

11:11, has any wish come true?

2010-06-17T10:19:00.001+08:00

take care everyone :)
will be leaving singapore for 5 days, having race in malaysia :)
will update soon !!

2010-06-15T10:43:00.000+08:00

i guess not...

2010-06-15T00:18:00.000+08:00

i hope you won't misunderstand me . Have a great surprise and please do show off your smile to your friends :)

2010-06-14T15:12:00.002+08:00

tomorrow...
it will be a lovely one :)

2010-06-10T20:20:00.000+08:00

I agree that it's the thoughts that count.

But have you ever encounter, when you have the thought, someone act before you do.
Don't want to make it like I'm the one who have no creativity and go with someone's idea.
Because ultimately, this is what I've plan long ago, but now some stranger just took it away completely.
In the end, appreciation seem so confuse to me. I wouldn't know it is merely making my day or the real feeling.

I decided to drop the idea, cos i always want to be special to you..

2010-06-05T16:17:00.002+08:00

~~stay...~~

2010-05-28T12:07:00.002+08:00

These days are just like a tough battle...
Peace soon ?

2010-05-22T15:06:00.000+08:00

when will the dark clouds really over ?

I'm waiting for the sun to shine.

I guess it's coming soon... cos everything is fine now.

Today i saw rainbow:) Good sign though, did you manage to see it?
Happy days ahead!

~~Addiction~~

2010-05-14T23:43:00.000+08:00

Is this a good suggestion?

I don't think so :/

It's getting late, are we going to be lag behind? or should we drop the suggestion and get closer to each other?
These words are killer, i become sensitive when these words are appearing infront of me.
My heart sank, my tears roll down slowly. i thought i've hold on tight, but somehow i feel that is losing grip.

~~nomorelettinggo.~~

2010-05-14T15:40:00.000+08:00

hello blog, two days ago, my mind was blank, not even a question.
I felt lost, confuse, depress, heartbreak at the moment. At that point of time, there were so many question marks on my head, but when the call was make, my mind is completely blank.

Sitting in front, looking at someone for a long period of time, at that point of time, i felt that i can't look at you like this anymore.

this is the fear i started in you, i'm gonna stop this fear gradually in you. we will be back again. everything will be on track once more. <3

2010-05-11T00:28:00.000+08:00

tomorrow will be a brand new day for you and certainly you will have big smile on your face :)

2010-04-28T00:14:00.002+08:00

i don't want to lose grip in something that is very important to me.
never want to...

herewithme?

2010-04-22T22:55:00.002+08:00

I hope that everything is alright, because i feel that we are doing well :)
Great things coming along.

2010-04-16T16:05:00.000+08:00

Woots ! Haven been updating this blog during this few months of holiday.
I guess i'm too busy or too tired. However, i will try to update this blog and my tumblr regularly.
To summarize this holiday, i guess i prefer going to school more. HAHA. (because can sleep longer)
Start of school, being informed that submission of FYP is on JULY! Gosh. not even halfway there. I have a HUGE question mark for my fyp, raised white flag *
I guess everyone is doing well, including myself. Looking forward in this semester, i need to improve my GPA seriously :>

Today is my first day of school and also the last day of the week, woohoo, how great can it be ? Really time pass fast. First lesson was so confusing, Biomechanics in human movement. Got to read up more, no choice. But i guess i can endure through this semester well, cos it's just 3 day week.

2010-03-25T01:33:00.000+08:00

I've improved for my GPA, but still below 2.5.
Went for Internship interview yesterday, chosen my choice of job. But all damn far from my house.
MR500 coming soon, just paddle hard and think nothing else.
To my both fellow buddies, enjoy your trip to korea :)

iwillhandleitproperlyfromnowon.

2010-03-23T00:59:00.000+08:00

FYP FYP, omg.
Got to really get going, can't slack anymore.
Race coming, trying hard to plan my time.
Seriously... headache.

Bad Day

2010-03-18T01:33:00.000+08:00

This period is stressing me out.
Just service my E72, the person told me that they have updated my software. But it became more LAG! WTH.
All the contacts cock up and i got to edit one by one. It's killing me.
I think i really need to cool down awhile, these days kinda moody.

Mistake!

2010-03-12T23:26:00.000+08:00

First time i hit a pole, it just flew out right infront of my eyes. So embarrassing and totally throw face. I did laugh at myself secretly.

I hope from this point of time onwards, everything will be great for us. Doing great now, i believe and i trust.
Happy twelveth :)

2010-03-11T23:08:00.003+08:00

there's nothing that i'm hiding...

2010-03-09T23:51:00.001+08:00

Feeling distracted today, my mind was somewhere else.
Tell me that what i heard from you today was true, because i trust you.